Nov 29, 2011

I Miss Out on all the Fun Stuff

Wow... I picked a hell of a week to roll over and die, huh? Figures.

So, let me just touch on a few replies and stuff I wanted to make first, then I'll touch on the "big news" that I missed out on...

I suppose, firstly, that I want to apologize for exploding on a couple of people. I was not well at the time. Things were said, some of which I meant, some of which I probably didn't, all of which I'll touch on as it comes up. I'm not expecting everyone to just up and forgive me, because I was kind of being an ass and I likely deserve the scorn, so just know that I'm sorry about all that and I'll try to make it up to you if I can.

Shaun, I don't know if you're still mad at me or not. You dropped me a line after I collapsed that gave me the impression you at least cared a little so... thanks for that. And I'm honestly sorry if I offended you. I also realize the titles have been passed on, but I still identify you as a Sage, so that just kind of came out while I was ranting. I'm also sorry for bitching about M... was having a break down... but I hear you got in contact with him lately, so that's good to hear and I hope you guys finally manage to have that meet up you've been after. I'm... not going to apologize for Elaine though, but I'll get to that later. In any case, should the opportunity arise in the future for us to meet, if you still wanna deck me, then I'm not gonna hold that against you. Best of luck.

IKE, yooooouuuuu.... died or something? Your blog is gone. That kind of depresses me. But if you're reading, thanks for the support.

TMV, I'm not going to completely disagree with you, because you have a point. And it's kind of a good one I guess... but I still can't get behind that sort of sacrifice logically. It may be elegant and noble, but it's still stupid... and selfish... and not solving anything. But who am I deny someone a moments happiness amidst such a horror show? I just prefer endings that result in fewer dead people.

Oh, and yes, I could certainly use a hot chocolate... or a beer. Can someone magic me one of those please? Nick? <.<;

"Joseph" ....I don't know what the quotations are for. <.<;
And I'm not sure here, but I'm getting the distinct impression you were offering something. I could take a few guesses at what, but I'm not sure if I want to. I'm not expecting to have to leap down from my fence anytime soon... but in the event that changes... then I suppose "I'm listening." That's all I'll say for now.

Knit, well... I've got a sink. ^.^; And a toilet. And there is technically a drain in the floor over there. But not exactly a shower. I'd kill for an actual shower. ....Figuratively, of course.

And the best for last!
Why yes, I did happen to consider the consequences of what might happen if I got ridiculously ill while stuck in a hole in the ground and nobody knows where to find me. Kind of crossed my mind a few times. It's an unfortunate situation, but one I've got to deal with for as long as I remain in my present condition. Hopefully I'll be better prepared next time, but even if I had someone available to aid me, I doubt they'd be able to find this place easily and even then, they'd have little luck getting in. There "was" a wheel crank handle on the outside of the door which could unlock and be used to heave open the door, but I happened to notice a good while back that it could be removed if I twisted it the right way, so it's sort of sitting in the floor right across from me at the moment. Kind of fucked myself in that regard. But I can assure you, though I will perhaps one day reveal my location to someone I believe I can trust in the event of emergencies... given recent events, I stand relatively certain that the last person on EARTH that I would consider giving that information out to is YOU, Elaine.

And I hate to rile myself up again after all this, but holy hell did you ever ask for it. I mean, my god! No wonder you were so up my ass for complaining about people making "Deals with the Devil," you were smack dab in the middle of one yourself! The irony is so thick I'd need some kind of laser chainsaw to cut through it all. Of all the fucking things you could have done! And after all those people came to my blog to defend you! You were selling them all out behind their backs to the enemy for some false sense of security?? Oh. My. God! I couldn't have been laughing harder when I read through all of that. The hypocrisy! Yes, yes, you were saving peoples lives. Yes. Lets completely disregard the part where you were selling your allies out to the enemy because you're Such a Good Fucking Person.

And don't misunderstand me here. I'm not happy that Hope burned. I'm not happy that people died because of you. In fact I'm quite rather upset over that bit and offer my deepest sympathies for those who were lost. But I am most certainly beaming over the Cosmic Bitch Slap that fate just delivered to that bitch. Hey, Maybe it'll Wake her the Fuck up! Wouldn't that be awesome? Oh... no, just made her try to kill herself or something. Well thanks Elliot, we could have been done with that traitor, but if you guys wanna keep her around then I guess that's your choice. Forgive and Forget seems to be the Hypocrisy Special around here.

But I'm not going to apologize for this bit. This is me as serious as I can be. She can go jump in a lake. I don't care. Honestly, as far as I'm concerned, the greatest tragedy of last week isn't that Hope burned. It's that Konaa is Dead, and Elaine is Still Alive. Further proving the age old theory that Good People Die Young, and Bastards Live Forever.

But hey, at least one potentially good thing came out of it all... because Nicky Sage did Something Crazy, which if you are to believe even half of what he's said (and though I have a great deal of respect for those carrying around the Title of Sage, I still have a tendency to disregard every other thing Nick Dwyer says, because every other thing Nick Dwyer says and does makes Robert Sagel sound like a relatively sane gentleman by comparison), then he and Ellen may have actually scored everyone at best a couple weeks or at least a couple of days of Construct-free recuperation time. Course looks like I've been out of it for most of that time, but hey, maybe the rest of you got a bit of a reprieve. That's cool, right?

And I'm just gonna wrap it up here before I manage to piss anyone else off, because apparently a lot of people still like Elaine despite the big reveal. So, okay. If that's the kind of person you want to continue trusting, then go ahead. I'm not stopping you. But me personally? I'm not going anywhere near that bitch. You've got your opinion, I've got mine. Lets agree to disagree and move on. I've said everything I intend to say on the matter and I'm not going to "troll" the topic any further.

All that said and done. I think it's about time I stop drudging through the past and pay more attention to the present. So I'm ceasing my previous reading binges and going to focus only on current events from now on. I'm also going to start compiling my own notes and reading back over some bookmarks I made... See if I can't start putting together some worthwhile theories. Might take a few days, but I'll update as I can. Please bear with me.


  1. Best I can tell Ike "or somethinged" all right, though for the life of me I don't know what. Still... I don't know, I guess I'll just link you to it:

    I'm glad you're feeling better, I was beggining to get worried. And hey, if you ever want the guy who has a deal with Slender Man, who has killed a guy who was technially a runner, and who admits to being a self serveing liar to pull you out of the ground, shoot me an e-mail. Though you'll probably have more trustworthy freinds by the time you're ready to be pulled out, I wouldn't mind helping if you ever really needed it.

    See you around

  2. After this post? I'd love to deck you about five more times than I already wanted to.

    But for what it's worth? I'm glad you're alive. We don't need anymore fucking casualties this week, and you're certainly not doing anything wrong that I know of other than being an asshole.

    I'm an asshole myself. I sympathize. But for future reference, every mention or attack on her on this blog earns you another wop upside the head.

    Just sayin. Keep on keepin on Groundhog dude.

  3. Thank God there are still a few sensible people out there.

    Oh, and a word of advice: don't place reliance on other people's research. You've stated that M's rules are "outdated" yourself, but they're really just pretty shitty rules for everyone other than him. You can't rely on rules at all. I've got some guidelines on my blog that I'm vainly suggesting you check out, but they all deal with simple logic. Don't worry so much about finding out what's true and what isn't. Focus on finding out what's true for YOU, and then taking appropriate measures.


  4. Free, that is... Different.
    I'm not sure how I feel about that. And I think I need advil again.

    Heh... well, not saying I don't trust you, but I think you've already pointed out why I "may" be a liiiiittle weary of giving you that information. But I'll keep the offer in mind.

    Shaun, ahh... yup. Can't say I didn't partially see that coming. Apparently Elaine is just really popular even as a traitor. I'm honestly kind of worried about you and everyone else that think that way... I realize you know her better and probably know her as a "good person" but... the facts have already spoken for themselves. You broke the news in the first place, so you should know. If you still want to support her after all of that, then that's your call, I'm not gonna tell you what to do. I'm just saying that I personally am having nothing further to do with her. I'm not even gonna say anything if she starts trolling me again. I'm done with it.

    Jekyll, (a) Thank you, (b) thaaaat's probably among the best advice I've heard. You'd have to be blind to not notice all of the inconsistencies in tactics working for some and not for others. I don't even begin to understand how that works. But yeah, starting today I'm going to start putting together my own theories. And I'll give your blog another look while I'm doing it, because every piece of knowledge helps.

  5. Just wanted to tell you I'm glad you're alright dear

    Also, I agree with your view on Elaine

  6. All I see is the ramblings of small fry. Elaine's a big girl, Shaun, she can defend herself. Though I suggest you watch it, Gargoyle; rubbing people's noses into the ground tends not to work out for the person doing the rubbing, hm?

  7. Shit. I'd fallen behind on keeping up on all the blogs I read. I didn't realize Konna had died. Hopefully he went down swinging.

    Speaking of Hope, it really couldn't have ended any other way. Proxies and people trying to live in harmony? Madness.

  8. I'm rather proud of you for not apologizing. You told what you thought was the truth, stood up for yourself, and held your ground even when people were upset with you for it. Why in the bloody hell are people so upset in the first place? I knew it would fall when I first heard about it, but I was a supporter of a sanctuary to begin with.

    We're all liars and deceivers, murderers and to some degree, sell outs. And to your question? People still like me, despite all evidence and knowledge to prove they shouldn't. People still like TMV and David, and hell, I absolutely adore Wolfie despite the fact that she's the reason the true love of my life died. So yes, we're all a bit blind, and a bit stupid. It's just who we are.

    Not saying I necessarily agree with what you've said, I'm not going to jumpstart another argument. But it is nice to see someone being honest with themselves for once.

  9. I agree, Elaine was and still is a dumbass.


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