Waiting Game

So, thought I'd update you guys... It's been around for a couple of days now... It was around when I made my last post too actually, I just didn't really feel like making mention of it at the time...

It comes and it goes. But I'd say it's pretty obvious it knows I'm here. Which is... you know... fan-fucking-tastic. But whatever, we all knew this was coming... I knew it wouldn't last forever... this was destined to happen the moment I exposed myself by starting to blog about the thing, so here we are. Time to deal with it.

Oh... and I can see it for real now. Second time he showed up, either I'd managed to break the barrier or he just stopped pretending to give a shit about hiding from me... whatever the case, yeah, I'm staring at the real monster now. And yes, it is unnerving as fuck.

Luckily, he's staying outside and just sort of wandering around when he's here. It's interesting... I've never really seen him "walking" before now. How something manages to move in a manner that looks completely natural and yet completely wrong at the same time is beyond me. He still "teleports" around too, but it takes me a while to pick up on that, since one moment he'll be one place and then the next he's just gone and it takes a second before my brain actually registers the fact. Like there's some kind of perceptive delay. Then maybe I'll spot him again on another camera a moment later. If I don't, then he's either left or just outside camera visibility somewhere.

I have to say, I'm surprised the cameras are even holding up. I expected a bunch of interference or something when he showed up, but really they only show signs of static every so often and that's about as bad as it gets. Maybe what we normally see in vlogs is just him screwing up the part of the camera that does the actual recording/saving bit. The tape or whatever. I dunno. I'm just glad I can kind of keep an eye on him.

I figure it's only a matter of time before he tries to get inside. I'm not sure exactly how that's going to happen either. He may know I'm here, and I'm sure my steadily growing paranoia is making that Aaaaall the more obvious, but he still can't see me. And since he can't see inside of this place, trying to "teleport" himself inside is probably quite dangerous. (Though if he does try that and manages to fuck up and kill himself via telefrag then I am going to laugh my fucking ass off.) Not sure how obvious the "door" is to him, but I'm kind of hoping that would hold up against an attack. I mean, this is a fallout shelter, it should be able to survive the shockwaves from an atom bomb. I doubt they managed to test it against Slender Tentacles, but hey, tough is tough, right? Right? <.<;

For now I'm just waiting things out. I've got a bag packed and ready to go. In the event of an emergency, all I need to do is grab it and my laptop and I'm out the door. I'll try to keep you up to date but... haaaa... yeah, may become a bit strapped for typing time real soon so... maybe just keep holding your breath or something.

Well, That's New

So, typically speaking, my grand surveillance camera viewing adventures are pretty boring. I've got to the point where I barely even notice them running in the background anymore. The times when I found peace or joy out of just watching the leaves fall or the trees sway in the wind or that random bird fluttering about have similarly passed. It can still be relaxing, especially if the birds are chirping... because Oh God, Naturally Occurring Sounds! Something to listen to that isn't my freaking laptop fan!

But yeah, it's gotten old. Nothing ever happens. The biggest scare I've had, apart from the previously mentioned one, was when I heard a bunch of really loud clicking noises coming from the speakers and checked about until I found one with- OH MY GOD WHAT IS THAT HORRIBLE GIANT BEAST STARING INTO THE CAMERA LENS AND WHERE DID IT COME FROM AND LOOK AT THE SIZE OF IT'S EYES AND IT'S TEETH AND-

...oh wait it's a Squirrel.


....Awwwwwww~ <3 <3 <3


So yeah, random fluffy cuteness monsters and loud screechy noise thing aside, I haven't really gotten much play out of these cameras. My fantasies of lost and clueless Proxies scouring the woods for me totally lost to the land of my dreams!

And now there's this shit... -.-;

I'm looking out one of my cameras at this one tree. There's nothing really special about it, it's just a freaking tree, just like all the other trees. It's not huge or bleeding or anything. It's just a tree. And it's just there. So it normally wouldn't be a problem... Except that I've never seen it before today.

This isn't some "Oh the leaves fell out of the trees and now you can see more of the surrounding area" bullshit either. I've had a clear view of these woods for weeks. Nine times out of ten, the whole place is as silent, dead, and unmoving as a still painting. I've practically got the landscape memorized. So "Tree suddenly appearing out of nowhere" kind of raises my brow a bit.

And I'm steadily inching towards freaking out over it, because I've heard about this kind of thing happening before. So what I've pretty much convinced myself at this point... is that I'm peering into a Perception Filter. So I'm sort of writing this out as much for self-confirmation of the matter as I am for you guys to be aware of the situation. Because I'm not stupid. I know what it really is out there. You ALL already know what it really is.

Sometimes I hate being right... I fucking called it here, I know it. So... great, I guess I'm going to start putting my philosophies into practice and start pounding away at my psyche until I can see this thing for what it really is. And while I'm doing that, I'm going to hope really hard that it goes the fuck away.

But at least now I don't have to worry about what decision to make regarding my food situation.... I'm fucking ecstatic.